I care

I care about what you think of me.

I might not even know you, but I care.

I am addicted to the approval of others. I am constantly questioning whether or not I am smart enough, skinny enough, funny enough, pretty enough, qualified enough... _____ enough. Some days are better than others, but I struggle everyday.

This makes life hard sometimes. When I feel like I am not _____ enough, I often want to run and hide. I abandon the person, people, place that I fear sees me as not _____ enough. It sucks.

It really sucks.

And, it makes it hard to be in community.

The fear sneaks in, and I want to run.

It takes all that is in me to stick around and wait for the verdict, and continue living my life, regardless of the outcome. The reality is... NOT EVERYONE IS GOING TO LIKE ALL OF ME. Hello, I certainly don't like everything about everyone that I come into contact with.

Life is just hard.

I think we get stuck in this mentality that if only I were _____er life would be easier. If only I was dating ____ life would be easier. If only I made _____ more money each month...

We live in the shadows of what if, if only, and maybe statements.

Lets give to the wind our fears, stop living under these glass ceilings, and live life abundantly.

Easier said than done, I know... but let's try! :)