At a loss for words...

kind of.

Not really.

I have a lot of words.

Some good, some not so good.

There is a lot going on.

Mourning of a whole new kind. Mourning of an old kind brought back up. The feeling of being judged by those who pride themselves in loving unconditionally. The knowledge of letting people that you love down.

These days, I find myself not saying much.

I will talk soon.

I will write soon.

It takes time.

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I feel bad...

I should be out in that driveway stopping you
Tears should be rolling down my cheek
And I don't know why I'm not falling apart
Like I usually do
And how the thought of losing you's not killing me
I feel bad

That I can stand here strong
Cold as stone, Seems so wrong
I can't explain it
Maybe it's just
I've cried so much
I'm tired and I'm numb Baby I hate it
I feel bad that I don't feel bad

I can let myself be angry over wasted time
And sad about just throwing love away
Yeah I almost wish my heart was breaking
But I cant lie
All I want to do is turn the page
I feel Bad

That I can stand here strong
Cold as stone, Seems so wrong
I can't explain it
Maybe it's just
I've cried so much
I'm tired and I'm numb Baby I hate it
I feel bad

That I don't feel bitter, alone
I just feel its time, its time to move on
I just gotta move on and on and on and on

Yeah
Baby it's just I've cried so much
I'm tired and I'm numb baby I hate it
I feel bad that I don't feel bad
No, I don't feel bad

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Christmas Card Time

I need YOUR help.
Last year, I got a GREAT response to my Christmas Card.
Everyone loved it.
Only problem is, I feel pressure now.
Not a bad kind of pressure... a good kind of pressure to continue to bring joy.
I have my photo shoot set, but I am lacking ideas.

We are heading up to Julian for the pictures.

Here are some of the pics from last year...










What should I do this year?!?!

HELLLLLPPPPPP!!!!

If I use your idea, you may just get something sweet in the mail (more than the card itself!!!)

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Holy Ladies

Wow.

If it ain't broke, don't fix it.

Wow.

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Project Christmas

As most of you know, Little Kate McRae has a brain tumor. Kate's parents recently shared their heart and vision for Christmas this year. They are unsure if Kate will be hospitalized on Christmas (and Kate’s birthday, which is the 26th) and are working through the details of the day. However, they have really felt it on their hearts to bless the kids at the hospital that they have gotten to know. Despite such dark times, the McRae family still seeks Christ and desires to bless everyone around them. So amazing!

In a recent post on http://www.prayforkate.com , Holly wrote:

“…the reality is, there will be families up here, on the oncology floor, away from the traditions, their immediate families and extended families, fighting for the lives of their children. Some their resources spent to get their children treatment. Others deciding which children to spend Christmas with. Others wondering if this will be their last Christmas together. The thought never ceases to bring me to tears. And so we thought we could ask Kate’s amazing followers to help us try and make it a special day for these kids. We are going to ask for people to send donations for kids of all ages and around Christmas we will distribute the gifts to the families from all of you! We want these kids to know they are loved, thought of and treasured. I wish fun gifts could take away a diagnosis, bring families back together, bring total healing. We obviously know it can’t. However, we can bring smiles where they may be lacking. And bring a glimmer of hope on very dark days.”

Sooo…LET’S DO IT! I’m not sure who all of you readers are, but I know that there are at least 100 of you! If we all sent one gift or volunteered our time, imagine the impact we could have on these sweet children’s lives!

HERE’S HOW YOU CAN HELP…

Post a comment to this post by November 28th. I will forward the list of names to Holly since I’m inticipating her inbox being full from her post.

You can either send gifts, money or volunteer your time. I know many of you are states away, but you can still help!

Thank you for helping with PROJECT CHRISTMAS and for blessing the lives of some very sick little ones! Can’t wait to hear how you can help!

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Top Ten...

Top Ten Reasons why Swine Flu SUCKS...

10. People treat you like you have the plague.
9. You feel like crap.
8. You can't work. (I suppose this only counts if you actually like your job.)
7. Most of the shows on DayTime TV are terrible.
6. Your nose gets raw from wiping it so much.
5. You can't have people visit you, like with other sicknesses.
4. It doesn't go away as soon as one would hope.
3. Your bed, however comfortable it is, will start to be overrated.
2. You can't leave your house.
1. YOU MISS A DEAR FRIENDS WEDDING!!!!!

F the Swine Flu.
Right now, Emily is no longer a Keirstead!
She is Mrs. Eric Turner.
I should be there.
Instead, I have a credit with Southwest Airlines and a really cute outfit waiting to be worn.
More than both of those things, I missed out on a very special day.

I didn't get to see Emily walk down the aisle.
I didn't get to see the look on Eric's face as he watched Emily walk towards him.
I didn't get to hear the vows that they exchanged, promising faith, hope, and love.
I didn't get to cheer for the first kiss.
I didn't get to snap way more pictures than necessary of all of that.
I didn't get to have breakfast for dinner... which I was REALLY looking forward to. A first at a wedding for me.
I didn't get to dance the night away.

F the swine flu.

All I have to say is I better get better, cause I WILL NOT miss Kelli and Sam's wedding on November 15th.

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1000 for 1000

My dear friend, Jeff Gokee, is taking a trip to India in February of 2010 to lead a conference of pastors. Jeff is a man of great faith. Jeff is a wonderful friend, an amazing father, an unbelievable pastor, a gifted communicator, and a loyal husband. Jeff is going to be a blessing to these pastors in Inida.

Here is where you come in.

It only costs twenty US Dollars to get the pastors there. $20.
That is less than a week of your Starbucks/Chipotle/Fro-Yo fix.

Would you consider joining with us? $20!

Here is all of the info...

Let's come together to not only meet the goal, but surpass it...

"Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen."

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Thanksgiving

What are you doing on Thanksgiving?

Every year, the whole family gets together at my grandma and grandpa's house for Thanksgiving. The house is packed, there is more food than any of us could even think of eating, and it is loud. I love it.

This Thanksgiving will be different.

BEFORE we head to Grandma and Grandpa's I am going to do the Father Joe's Thanksgiving Day 5k.

Wanna join?

If 15 people join me, I will wear my Chicken costume...

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