Big dreams in small realities

If you have read this blog for any length of time, you know that I love me some Natalie Closner. That girl write the songs of a 20 something lady's heart. TRUST ME. SO DANG GOOD!

Well, she recently wrote and released a song that has a line about "fitting big dreams in small realities". I can't seem to get that line out of my head. Mostly because it goes along with the theme of this blog... dreaming big while stuck in reality. Now, don't get me wrong, my reality DOES NOT suck. I am INCREDIBLY BLESSED. I mean, give me a break, I have been able to do and see some pretty amazing things in my 26.5 years on earth. In that, I am also acutely aware that there is so much more for me.

My current work situation...

I work 7:30-2:30 at a local elementary school. Sweet hours eh?! I mean give me a break, I am off of work while most people are just returning from their lunch break. To top it off, I get all federal holidays off, a week at Thanksgiving, two weeks over Christmas and New Years, and a week at Spring break. And the icing on the cake, I get summers off. I know, I know, why the heck would someone want to change that?!?! Simply put, it isn't my dream job. I don't hate it, but I don't love it. It isn't what I am passionate about.

This summer, I got to work at a local concert venue and LOVED every minute of it. I worked in the box office, helped with some special projects, assisted with some VIP parties, and just THRIVED being at a concert venue, doing what I LOVE. When schools started my time at the venue went from daily to show days. I am glad that it didn't have to stop cold-turkey but I often wish that I was driving there for work everyday. I just love it there. By no means is it a perfect place, but I even love it for it's imperfections!

Well, last night was a pretty amazing night for me. It probably won't and doesn't seem like much to some people, but it was HUGE for me and my soul. I was given the opportunity to help out in a new way, a way in which I never thought I would have been able to, at least not at this state in life.

All this to say, my heart is full. I am thankful for people who see my potential. I am thankful for people who believe in me, so much that they put me in positions that show me just how much that believe in me. I am thankful for people that cheer me on and encourage me.

I felt like a geek driving home last night with a big smile on my face knowing that I did a good job. I was nervous, as anyone would be, wanting to do a good job and not let anyone down. Driving home, I smiled because I know that I did well. That felt really good.

All this to say, I often feel like my current work has me living in a "small reality" as there is so much MORE that I want to be doing. BUT... the REALITY is, my reality isn't small at all. It isn't what I want it to look like, but that doesn't make it small. I am going to continue to dream big and wide, even when my reality doesn't necessarily look anything like those dreams; as I learned last night, big dreams can come true even in small realities. :)

Hope that makes sense... I know it kind of rambled on and on, just had to share it.

Dream BIG