Lead Me On

I have been on a country kick for the past four months or so.  I will use working on the Country Mega Ticket parties as an excuse (as if I need one).  There is so much that I love about country music.  I love that the songs tell a story.  I love that, for the most part, the artists tend to write their own music.  I appreciate that most of the artists also play at least one instrument, and if you are Kid Rock (who is Country/Rock... so just go with it) you play EVERY instrument on stage.

If you know me at all, you know that I am a sucker for a good love song... and I am an even bigger sucker for a good break-up song.  Seriously though, you would think that I have had my heart broken in the most devastating way if you were to really listen to some of the songs that I often have on repeat.  I think this just goes back to the fact that I love a song that tells a story.

While driving in Old Rusty one day, with the country genre on shuffle as it usually is, "Lead Me On" by Gloriana came through the speakers.  I was first caught off guard by the vocals.  The combination of the lyrics and the vocals performing the first stanza, I was drunk in the song.  Of course, I then put it on repeat for the remainder of the car ride and part of my work day.  As I listened, I couldn't help by feel uneasy.

Here are the lyrics...

There you go in all your beautiful glory
Messin’ with my head like you always did
I’m thinking of things I don’t want to say and I can’t breathe
What do I have to tell you girl so you won’t leave
 

Tell me what I wanna hear
I don’t care if you’re lying baby
I just want to feel you touch me right now
Go ahead and call it love
Tomorrow you can deny it baby
Kiss me again, let me pretend that’s it’s not wrong
Baby lead me on

I want to touch your skin, I want to taste it
And I want to feel that love like we used to make it
I don’t care if we go nowhere, you’re all I see
One more night with you is all I need
Yeah

I know what you want
I know what you need
I know when I’m gone
You’ll still think of me
Cuz You know what I want
You know what I need
I know when you’re gone
You won’t even think about me
 

Tell me what I wanna hear
I don’t care if you’re lying baby
I just want to feel you touch me right now
So go ahead and call it love – tomorrow you can deny it baby
Whisper my name, baby no shame - is it so wrong
Baby lead me on
 

I know what you want
I know what you need
I know when I’m gone
Baby lead me on
You won’t even think about me -- baby
 

I know what you want
I know what you need
Oh you know – you know – you know – know-- you won’t even think about me
I know what you want
I know what you need
 

Baby lead me on
Baby lead me on

EEKS!!

I put the lines that struck me in bold.  I mean, WOW!  I get it, I have been there.  I have wanted someone so bad that I just wanted to hear what I wanted to hear, even if it was a lie.  BUT... it is SO unhealthy.  "Tell me what I want to hear, call it love, and you can deny it tomorrow?!!?"  

If you know me, and you ever hear me say anything of this sort, I give you FULL permission to slap me across the face!  Seriously!  

I want someone to love me.  I don't want them to have to lie about that love.  

I want someone to tell me the truth.  I don't want someone to tell me what I want to hear.

I won't settle for someone Leading Me On...