I miss Ben A LOT!
Then again, anyone who knew Ben, misses him.
I miss his smile.
I miss his witty humor and under-the-breath comments that would leave me laughing for hours.
I miss his love for Harry Potter.
I miss having deep and meaningful conversations with him, in which I often had to use a dictionary or thesaurus to keep up with the words he was using. :)
This weekend, I was in Arizona, visiting friends and just breathing.
While there, I saw sweet Kate.
I never thought it would be so hard to see Kate.
Form the moment I saw her, I was a wreck.
The puffy cheeks, the missing hair, the glazed eyes... it was all too familiar and so sad.
I believe that God can heal Kate. I absolutely believe that He can.
But I also know that sometimes God doesn't heal, even when it is our deepest prayer.
When thinking about praying about and for Kate, and so many others, I am constantly being reminded of the story in Daniel of Shadrach, Meshach and Abednego... when they were to be put in the fire, they prayed that God would keep them. BUT, they were also prepared for God to NOT keep them.
It is a hard and EXTREMELY prayer to pray...
"God, even if you don't _______________ you're no less God."
I prayed and prayed and prayed that God would perform a miracle on Ben. I prayed that his tumor would go away. I prayed that he would be healed. But, I also prayed that we would continue to have faith and believe, even if He didn't.
I believe that God can heal Kate, but I also know that He might not.
I pray that we would see God as no less or no more, no matter what the outcome.
So, whatever it is that you are on your knees for... REMEMBER, God is no less and no more because of the outcome.
Cancer. Broken marriages. Love lost. Hopeless. Tired. Lonely. Addiction. Whatever it is...
You can keep up with Kate's updates at: http://www.prayforkate.com
Also, Audrey Assad wrote an INCREDIBLE song for sweet Kate.
Check it out...
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